So I'm Still sick. I'm thinking its maybe about time to go see a doctor.. But I hate doctors. I like to just get over illnesses on my own, but this has been going on for about three weeks, and its driving me crazy. I still cant sing properly, which is just about the worst thing in the world for someone like me. It'll seem like i'm getting better for a day or two, and then i'll go back to being sick enough to stay home. This is probably due to the fact that I havent slowed down the rest of my life enough to let my systems fix themselves. Thats why i'm kinda taking the rest of the weekend off. I didnt make any plans, and I'm going to hang around at home. I will probably get excruciatingly bored, but its all in the name of good health.
Last night was really great, but I had a bad day beforehand. It seemed like a lot of people were mad at me for various things that I didnt think should have been a big deal, and it really sucked. Like, Rosie got really mad and upset because I didnt invite her to the fifties party. This, i didnt understand at all. People always comment how they like smaller parties better sometimes, so I decided I would only invite about 20 people, and then made the list. This means that inevitably some of our friends would be cut, right? yet, Rosie took it as a personal insult that she wasnt one of the 20. Well, you cant ALWAYS be one of the 20! Like, the last couple of smaller things we did, Shakespeare party, Princess party, pirate party, etc.. she was always invited to. And so it just happened that this time she wasnt. Why am I always getting blamed for excluding people?? Doesnt anybody realize that nobody can be invited to everything all the time! And if people just freaking made their own plans, they could invite whoever they bloody want. Oh man, I didnt mean that to turn into a rant, but it just BUGS me. I mean, this is more than just Rosie getting upset for not being invited, it happens with other people, and on other occasions. Somebody else can make the invite list next time, and it can be THEIR job to make sure everyone knows about it. And somebody else can play hostess. Maybe then someobdy will appreciate the effort I always put into making sure everyone is having a good time.

And then for some reason Gareth got mad at me for "excluding" people too, and said he was tired of me excluding HIS friends from things, and he was being completely ridiculous. He acted really weird towards me the rest of the night too. Kind of distant and cold. It was odd, and I didnt like it. But of course he would never come right out and say whats on his mind. baaaaah.

Then at school I was outside on the benches with Barbara and Gareth, when Alleah randomly walked out and sat with us. I casually mentioned to her this tidbit of something.. i dont really remember what, and she started FREAKING OUT at me. Like, im not even joking, she just yelled at me for like 5 minutes, onthe weirdest things which really made no sense, and she kept changing the subject of her anger. Finally I was just like, I cant take this anymore, and walked away, Barbara following closely behind.

So that was day, anyway. Later though, was the fifties party at Lauras, which I was looking forward to immensley! I dressed up in my brown and pink dress, and put my hair up and everything, and went to Lauras around 6. Me, Mel, and Tim helped set up for the party, and ate fake hamburgers, and then hula hooped like mad because Lauras mom had bought two of them for us. It was great, because never before was I ever able to hula hoop at ALL and then all of a sudden i could do it brilliantly. I ended up hula hooping for most of the night actually, cause im weird that way. So we had a Swell old time dancing to fifties tunes, giving each other fifties names ( like Peggy Sue, or Skip) making ice cream floats, and just hanging around. It was really great. Sometimes smaller parties ARE better. Around 12-12:30 most people left, but Barbara, Llowyn, Mel, and I stayed chatting with Laura, and then Laura went to bed and we all stayed for a while anyways. It was really nice, because I rarely ever get to talk to Barbara and Llowyn. Then around 1 or 2 they left, and me and Mel went to bed and talked for an hour more.

So now i'm going to do a lot of nothing, fun for me.