And with me, it always happens so fast

So

I had a life changing epiphany today, on the bus.

No wait, i have to go back to last night first. I was eating dinner with Alleah and Trevor, and we were talking about motivation and whatnot. And I said, I work best with goals in mind. And I mean specific goals. Not just vague, in the distance ones. And not only do I work better, but im happier, and more fulfilled, I have a purpose, you know? And ive always known this about myself, its just a fact.
So today, I was sitting on the bus, and it just hit me, smack in the face: If ive known this all along, why the deuce havent I done anything about it? Ive just been puttering around for 8 months, saving up for something, somwhere, sometime. Yeah I wanted to go to school, yeah I wanted things to be different, but I wasnt doing anything about it!
So right then and right there I got out some paper and wrote a list;

Things I have to do to get my life on track

• Quit my job. It is a life sucking, degrading job out of hell. And not only that, they are NOT giving me the full time hours I was promised when I was hired.
• Hand out resumes. I mean, if im still planning on moving out ( which I am) im going to need a new job pretty soon! One where im appreciated, preferably. And not just another dime a dozen disposable worker. I'm better, and smarter, than that.
• Apply to Malaspina. Yup, im doing it. Im going to be in the theatre program. I realized how much I need to get back into the swing of school things. Plus, ive been so down since ive been ignoring the huge part of me thats theatre. I need to do shows. I need to be around people like me!
• Apply for a student loan. I should be on my own by then, so hopefully I qualify!! I probably cant go otherwise. But there are options such as;
• Ask my dad for money. This probably doesnt seem like such a big thing to you guys.. but im terrified to ask him for money. I havent asked him for anything in all of my 18 years. We have a very peculiar relationship. Im afraid that if I ask for money.. he just wont talk to me anymore. My sisters and him dont talk, because they wont put up with anything. But when it comes to my family, I put up with all the crap. So if that plan fails im going to...
• ASk my dad if he'll work out a loan with me. I KNOW he has the cash. So if we have a plan of payment, maybe he'll go for that. Im completely willing to pay back anything I take. In fact, I might like that more. I dont like feeling in debt to people forever. I like doing things on my own. But im not too proud to borrow, as long as I can repay.
• And my last step, MOVE OUT! I know this has already been in the works, but I have to show you guys that its still a plan, and im still going to do it. No backing out on promises, thats not my style. However, the date HAS changed to June 1st.

So thats it. My marvelous plan for self improvement. Ive already applied to Mal, and im quitting my job tomorrow. Ive printed out a budget so that i can apply for financial aid. Ive printed off resumes, ive got my moving out stuff.

Like it says in the title, with me, it all happens fast.

Caio kids