March at a Glance

Its the little things that make you happy. Drinking a cup of tea and watching a movie. Discovering an amazing new band. Spending time with an old friend.

Why do we spend so much energy trying so hard to find what will make/keep us happy, when really, its the simple things?

February was all abotu bettering myself. You know, learning new things, trying to gain skills, knowledge, etc.

March seems to have been more about stopping thinking about what I need, or want, or should be able to do, and more about what I already have.

Its been a good couple of weeks. I saw Barbara again for the first time in months! we had a good couple hour chat, and I really hope we can do that again soon. I spent a good chunk of time with the libratorbs, and thats good. I saw Daves new apartment! I drank an appalling amount of Absinthe. I met my eldest sisters new boyfriend. I went to see Power! I had alcohol in front of my mother. I worked a lot, but not as much as usual. I sang at the Upper Island Music Festival. I was written on at a party :P. I smoked a lot of weed. ate way too many Snacks. I went to the Malaspina gym. I celebrated St Patties day. I hung out with Tristan again. I had some guys over to play many many video games. I spent an absurd amount of time playing the Urbz. I got horrendously angry at someone I have no chance of ever defeating. I actually took the time to do some homework. I got realyl excited about Coachella. I spent too much money.

but its not over yet! This weekend brings about another Vancouver trip, which is always a grand adventure. And i am expecting a very reject-y email from CCPA any day now.

I hope you read this.

Okay, so what should I start with? " You really let us all down" ? or maybe, " who the fuck do you think you are" ? I think either one works. First of all, yeah, you DID let us down. Or did you forget that choir is an ensemble, not just your fucking solo. You say you already knew your part, and fine, maybe thats true. But thats not the point. Youre supposed to work TOGETHER. it was our LAST PRACTICE! now the tenors dont know if they arent singing loud enough, or if its just that were missing one. DO you honestly think youre good enough to not show up? Cause newsflash, you arent. We have two new guys now, and we DONT NEED YOU. Maybe you think you can just choose to not show up, because we will always beg you to come back. Well I wouldnt bet on it. Mrs Sinclair is pissed. Everyones pissed. and I hope you know I didnt defend you. Not one bit. Because I know yuo went to hang out with Stef, or play D&D, or somethign else you do all the fucking time. Do you remember last October when I decided I wasnt going to choir that one night a bunch of us went to the mall? You reamed me out, you said I was irresponsible, and couldnt keep my commitments, and that you were disappointed in me. How DARE you! Honestly, grow the fuck up. Dont act so high and mighty when you do the exact same thing. Maybe you dont care abotu choir because you know your PARENTS are still paying for it. Whatever the case is, i am PISSED OFF. You have done a lot of stupid things Geoff. You have been a mighty jerk. You have made all your other friends mad at you, but you know, this is the first time ive been truly angry.

I hope Sharon doesnt let you back in. You dont deserve it.

Sunshine and Rainbows!

I am in SUCH a good mood! Today was fabulous. For no reason at all. I missed thigns so much. I took a couple weeks to hide in a hole, and do things by myself, and I liked that.. But you really dont appreciate something til its gone. I appreciate all of you, SO MUCH. And in recognition of that, I will say a Little Something about most of you..

Barbara: I totally miss you. Seeing you the other day was great. I think I trust you more with things than anyone else I know! What youre going through now.. I cant even imagine. I cant believe you are handling it so well, and with that, you amaze me to no end. You will beat this, I know that to be true.

Megan R: I dont think I ever laugh as much as I do when I hang otu with you, not even joking. Sometimes, you see someone, and you KNOW you could be great friends, and thats you. You are just one of those people who will always make me smile.

Jill: Youre so your own person. I totally love that. Other people may do what people want them to do, or what they think they should do to be cool. From what Ive seen so far, you dont do that. You do what tyou want cause its you. And everyone loves you anyways. And I think thats going to follow you wherever you go.

Tasia: Of all the people ive met this year from school, you are the one im closest too. I think youre so funny, in a sarcastic sort of way, and even when we arent really doing much ( like in the car listening to music) i strill have so much fun with you. Youve been through some crappy stuff this year.. but you deal with it, in your own little Tasia way. Screw guys, because I think youre incredible.

Lisa M: You are so great!Always looking at life from funny little angles.. You have so much passion in you, and a whole list of things that I KNOW youre going to accomplish, one way or another. Youre going to do everything you say youre going to do. Thats what makes you such an awesome friend.

Maddy: Little bouncy maddy, always full of spirit. Thats what I love about you best, I think. This ball of energy thats always smiling. Except when yuore talking about people yuo hate, of course. I know you didnt have many friends in highschool, and I cant at ALL see why.

Nikki: oh Nikki, always so cool you are. You have got so much going for you, its ridiculous. Such an amazing dancer, so much ambition, and everything. You are another person who is going to DO what they want to do, no matter what anyone says. You WILL get into CCPA, one way or another.

Gregoire: What can I even say about myself :P? Such a great guy. The funniest one i may have ever met. And so sweet too. I think you would do anything for the people you love, and they would do the same. Thats something special, and will probably follow you wherever you go.

Kylan: for all that you can be too gruff, you can be sucha good guy too. You really are the big brother type. Protective, and loyal til the end.

Geoff: Weve been through a fair amount together, over the years. You can be sucha good guy, and when you love someone, you really love them, and wouldnt do anything to hurt them.

Martha: In all the years ive known you, I dont think ive ever heard you say a bad thing about anyone. Thats amazing. Its like you see the world through rose colored glasses. I love that, and I hope you are never jaded, because thats a rare quality to find in someone.

Stephen: We dont see each other much anymore, or talk much anymore, but I think we are still best friends. I love that you always trusted me with things you would tell other people, and I hope you know I trust you the same. You are one of the most incredible people ive ever met. So talented, so smart, and so easily adaptable and friendly in any situation. More than anyone else, you will go far.

Laura: we have been best friends for a long while, you and I. You know things abotu me I have never told anyone else. In fact, you are probably the only one who can even tell what im thinking most of the time. You are so intelligent, its scary. and im not talking book smart. You know things that everyone else doesnt. And you are so amazingly laid back, never getting into fights,and mediating other peoples. Im so glad weve stayed friends, even though we are so different sometimes.

Alleah: weve grown apart, and we both know it. But that can always be remedied. You, my little friend, will DO things. and I know that. And I cant ever believe how you deal with the things you do. Lesser people would have given up long ago, but you stayed strong, and you got stronger because of it. Now what? Nothing stands in your way, the road is clear. SO go for it.

Mel: You are always there for other people, and that is so wonderful. I know its hard. I know sometimes no one ever appreciates it, and no one ever thanks you. But I appreciate you, and all the little things you do that go unnoticed. You my dear, are a fabulous person. You are talented,and outgoing, and friendly, and everything. You may be lost now, but I know youre going to find the way.

Lisa V: I know we arent that good of friends. But I still think you are pretty damn awesome. Yo u try so hard to please people, and you do so much for everyone. I think you are one of those people that really care. You are one of the most pleasant people to be around because of that too.

Kaitlyn: Wow, the ultimate mediator. Kaitlyn you never have anything bad to say about people, and people never have anything bad to say about you. You are so go with the flow, btu will stand up for yourself if you need to, as well. Thats a balance that everyone tries to find, but most people cant.

Amber: Amber, sometimes I dont know how you deal with things, because it seems like you FEEL so much more than we all do. When you are sad, gloom clouds are everywhere.. but on the same note, when you are happy and smiles, you make EVERYONE happy and smiles. You believe in the good things, and good people. That will get you far.

Nathan: Is super! You are so mcuh fun, and always a treat to have around, because you make it a party wherever you are. You are never ever going to have any sort of problem making friends because EVERYONE LOVES YOU. In a word, you are fabulous.

Spencer: Yeah, you make fun of everyone, but everyone can tell you dont mean it. You are such a nice guy. All hugs and love and everything! And you are so ridiculously smart you make the rest of us look bad :P